It's been exactly a week since I wrote my last post and here I am again on the "eve" of a big day. This eve, though, I'm not thinking of Christmas, I'm looking back and reflecting on all that has taken place in our lives over the last 12 months.
Looking in the rear view mirror I see:
Entering into the last year of homeschooling Ted (but not the last of teaching him).
A trip to Florida
David's company being bought by a larger company
David gaining a third office (3 hours away)
A fence job that I thought would never end
Our family acquiring two horses to love and FEED
Too many divorces in the family of God
My wardrobe getting worse
A master closet that I love
The diningroom table I've always wanted
My "baby" turning 11 and not looking so much like a little boy
My taller baby being a young man and taking on a 40 hour a week job
My sisters having babies
My dad getting sicker with Celiac
My mom coming for a visit for the first time in 4 years
Falling MORE in love with my awesome husband
Falling in friendly love with a few new friends
Realizing that sometimes you have to let go of people who bring negativity to your life
Realizing that church is one of the most legalistic places to be
Realizing that just because a child comes from a Christian family, doesn't mean anything anymore
Realizing that Sarah Palin is an awesome strong woman and she scares the pants off liberals (yay)
Loving my savior even more and trying to learn to rest in Him for the big and little things
These are just some of the things I can remember that seem bigger, but tucked inside my heart are the little things like: 10am casual talks with my 17 year old who still shares his heart with me over a smoothie in the kitchen on a school day. Or late night hugs that he gives me when he comes in for the night. Or silly, Jerry Lewis type things that Collin does on an every day basis that make us laugh so hard. And the fact that he's only an inch away from being taller than me. And the fact that his favorite thing to do is watch classic tv shows with David and I. I have tucked inside the knowledge of all the small gestures David does on a daily basis that tell me he loves me, like making up the bed every morning, no matter how rushed he is to get to work. And turning down the covers every night when I'm about to go to bed. These are the things that you treasure, that you "ponder in your heart".
As always, I am looking forward to the new year with excitement (I like new beginnings) but also with a little fear and trembling. Ted will graduate and turn 18. Collin will be 12 (legally a pre-teen). David will be working under a new corporate office in Atlanta instead of Dallas (farther away). And I have to get a handle on my horrible wardrobe!
But, as with every other year that's gone before, Christ is my anchor, my guide, my hand-holder, my security, my shelter, my teacher, my friend, and my comforter. "Wherever He leads, I'll go."
I pray that 2011 will be wonderful year, full of blessings for all of you. Thanks for sharing this life with me!
Until "next year"......