One of the first thoughts that come to mind when I dream about my future - is my past. Oh yes! The dreaded reminder of all the times that I tried and failed or maybe even failed to try, because I expected there to be no success.
Have you been there?
You have such high hopes of moving forward, but you have to fight that part of your mind that says "Remember last time?"
You're not alone.
Every year, as I sit down to plan the new school year, I have such high hopes of being organized and "with it" and accomplishing great things with my one remaining student. I buy curriculum, plan the schedule, plan the work, plan the year - plan, plan, plan - and every year, life happens and we end up with an upside down schedule, too many real life activities, doing school at odd hours and learning as we go.
And every year I look back and feel like I've failed.
Then there are the resolutions to get in shape, eat right, quit drinking my coffee so sweet, and lose weight. Good grief, how many times can one make the same goal and NOT reach it? Seriously?
And what about the budget? I agonize over having a plan for our money and whether to use cash or credit, envelopes or not. I spend hours at a time, working on this, only to blow it within one hour at the grocery store!
Meal planning? Sure! Never works. I get bored. I don't have time. I don't want to eat THAT on THIS day. And on and on it goes.
Sometimes I feel like a hamster on a wheel, trying to get somewhere, but I just keep going in circles!
Each time I fail, I could just give up and live a life of unorganized chaos and be done with it all, but my will to conquer is stronger than my disappointment in myself, so I carry on.
And that's what it takes to dream!
It takes shaking off those past failures and moving ahead, in spite of what happened last week or last year.
It takes hearing God's voice of victory over Satan's voice of defeat!
To move forward means to learn from past failures; really evaluate what went wrong and how to improve.
Moving forward means dreaming of where you hope to be and setting your course in that direction.
Even the Lord says:
"Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland."
The New Year is coming and it's time to dream again.
It's time to move past your past and into your future.
Come on! We'll do it together........